Practice What You Preach

   It was the second to last day of the year, and my son being the teenager that he is, only wanted to attend long enough to take the required exam. I can't say that I blame him, but I wasn't really feeling great that morning and had already taken of work because of it.

 He decided to weasel his way out of riding the bus while I slept in a little extra and my partner headed off to work early by convincing him it was okay. I didn't think much of it, honestly, as it was such a usual occurrence for him to catch the bus and he usually ran a little late. My youngest and I were lounging around, watching some videos together and enjoying the morning when my lovely partner offered to bring us breakfast! I was feeling good, started working on my website and had a plan for the day to feel productive-- missing work seems to always have that slight negative effect on me; even if it's a rarity. 

   Then tragedy struck, the dreaded question.. before I even popped the straw into my ice cold arnold palmer.. 

"Did Liam catch the bus?" 

"I sure hope so.."

   As he proceeds to check, bad news, he's laying there in his bed playing his latest phone game obsession of the past year and a half; Brawl Stars. Obviously.. I was upset, my whole plan of relaxing and enjoying the morning with Ali (I hadn't seen him much since he was with his dad longer than he was supposed to be and then I had an 11hr work day right after) was haulted. A whole metaphorical wrench was thrown into our plans. I'll admit, I was not handling the situation as well as I could have.

  I decided to take a shower and begin getting ready for the day, while also crying about how disappointed I was that he would take advantage of the situation after I'd already discussed it with him the night prior. When I was done, he was already upset, I was upset and we had a slight exchange of words that weren't the most kind. I immediately stopped that and suggested we each just relax and take a few minutes to prepare for the conversation we needed to have. 

  As soon as we got in the car, I immediately told them how much I loved them and how I wanted to talk to each other with love, kindness and compassion. They of course agreed, we spoke a little and said we were sorry for the unkind treatment earlier and had a nice breathrough conversation on the way to school after Ali was taken to daycare.

   Everything ended up working out just fine, I reheated my breakfast and enjoyed that nice slow sip of my drink when I returned and already felt better and more productive. 

   I think ultimately it was a clear test from the universe to practice what Im preaching, that nobody is perfect and we all struggle sometimes but to always remember to practice the pause. Especially since my whole focus is around spiritual healing, being a guide and coaching people to find their inner peace. 

With health & healing, my friends,

            The Dalai-Mama (Codi)